Me, my brother Rob and my sister Jen December 2008.Thank you for all your thoughts for our family.
Finding strength for "normal" things is just very, very hard and I am taking one day at a time. Getting through each day is my main focus at this point. My sister arrives tomorrow of which I am so grateful for. My other brother who lives in London cannot come right now, which is terrible, I last saw him 8 years ago...I wish he could be with us right now, but we speak on the phone everyday. I feel the most for my dad...I can't imagine loosing a child...he already lost my mom when I was two. And of course I feel so much for my sister in law...they had been married 18 years this month (had just celebrated their anniversary)...
It helps me personally to cry, to talk about it when I need too. It is my own way of dealing with it.Sometimes I just can't and I just need to shut myself up or sleep. Sleeping helps and is great, because then I don't have to feel anything. The mornings are the worst as I wake up and for a few brief seconds life is normal until it hits me all over again...
The hardest thing is that life around you carries on. You still need to feed the kids, be a mom, do the washing, etc etc. you wish the world could stop so that you could just grieve. I suppose in time it will be the normality of these little things that will help me. My husband has been the most amazing man in the world. So utterly supportive and kind. He cries with me, he cleans for me, he does everything he can. And shame, he is still suffering with his own physical pain from his broken leg and limping around.
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I am just so sorry for your loss. I can not iamgine losing one of my three brothers. My prayers are with you hon!
Bonnie, i'm so sorry for you loss! it must be a very tough time for you all - sending you big big hugs! take care.
I'm so glad to see that you are pushing through, and still allowing yourself time to grieve. I know it's hard, and I can't begin to imagine how you were able to get your new store up and running while everything is still so fresh!
Take care sweetie - you are amazing!
I have not visited your blog for some time Bonnie, and tonight read with sadness your message about your brother. I know there will be positive thoughts from around the world heading towards you and your family.
Bonnie, I am so sad for you and your family. Thoughts and prayers are with you all xo
hey bonnie! thinking of you... i cannot imagine how you or your family must feel now.
good luck with your new ventures as well!
much love,
mel xxxxxxxxx
I am so sorry for your loss, Bonnie. A good friend of mine died last week of a heart attack and I know the pain that is still fresh in your heart. Death is a part of life we don't like to think about. Yet, when we must, we realize how precious life is and we need to find joy in everything we can. Walk a little slower and breath a little deeper. My thoughts are with you and your family ^j^
Hugs and love~ Becky
Bonnie, I just can't imagine.
I last saw my brother 5 years ago, and last Thursday he was kicked in the face during a soccer match. To cut a long story short, he's going to be OK, but for a little bit I was very, very scared.
Just know that I'm thinking so much of you, and I'm SO glad you opened your store.
I know I'm a million miles away, but PLEASE let me know if there's anything I can do...
Sweet Bon - still thinking of you every day - am glad to read this post - grieving does exactly what you have described to me also...
want to let you know prayers and love are going out to you all the time - Cher
cherfree2000@yahoo.com
(gave you this cuz I have wireless now aND CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO USE MY OUTLOOK EXPRESS EMAIL WITH IT! yikes - sorry for me hitting the cap lock!
Oh Bonnie, my heart goes out to you and your family, my sincere condolencies for your sad loss, I have 7 brothers and can't imagine how you must be feeling right now, you have your precious holiday in December (I just read that)together and must get great strength from the fact that you had many Happy times together..
God Bless you all
P.S. Thanks for dropping by my log today and taking the time to leave me a message :)
Hugs - Linda
Hi Bonnie, I've been thinking about you and Jenni all week, wondering how you two are doing. I have walked this same path all too recently myself and I still know the pain and shock you are feeling. My heart aches for you both. I wish I had words that would take your pain away, but I know there are none. Just know Bonnie, with each passing day that unbearable sadness in your heart will get a little easier to bare. Draw your strength from your family and children. They will keep you strong. My thoughts and prayers are with you my friend...much love, Pamela
Hi bonnie,
I don't speak english very well, but i want to tell you that my thoughts are for you and your family...
Take care.
Céline.
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