Tuesday, March 19, 2013

As brief as I can manage.

 

I remember when I was a little girl feeling like life stretched before me like a never ending book. There was no "the end" when I thought about life, my future or the future of others I loved. As I grew up, however, that notion of a never ending life vanished. Sometimes I wish I could have the protection the naivety of a child offers one again...
Loosing a loved one is a very hard experience. Probably one of the hardest we, as humans, have to face at some stage in our lives.

I've been struggling to gain the courage and strength to write this post. I do not like to talk about my personal life, I do not like to share things that I am struggling with or going through. This blog is supposed to be my little sanctuary, my "get-away" place. Somewhere I can share my creative side, a place I like inspires others. A happy place. We all have lives, we all face problems and issues on a daily basis. We all go through the loss of a loved one at some stage. So it's been hard, because I don't want to ignore it just because it is too hard to write about and at the same time,I don't want to bring everyone down reading this. Balance...sigh...

So let me be brief as brief is about all I can manage.

As some of you know my oldest brother passed away 4 years ago. Sadly, my other brother (and my last) passed away recently. I do not want to go into detail of how it happened as I feel it is too personal but I did want you to know why I have been so quiet.

I am doing a lot better thanks to the support of loved ones.


I want to get back to sharing things on my blog and I plan to do that soon. I just needed to do this first.

6 comments:

Hannelie said...

Oh Bonnie, you are in my thoughts!
Hugs
Hannelie

Emma said...

My dear friend, nice to see a post from you again, but so sorry its your sad news. Thinking of you (still) and i hope and pray you are getting through it ok. Love you lots, Em xx

Veronica said...

Was wondering just today why you've been so quiet, so sorry to hear your sad news.
You are in my thoughts! Vxx

aquascrap said...

I am so sorry to read about the death of your brother.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers

Judy
xx

redjanfan said...

how totally tragic Bonnie. My heartfelt sympathy in this second devastating loss. I hope you are able to recover your happy equilibrium in time. It must make you very thankful for your DH and children as well as remaining siblings. Find something beautiful in each day. Hugs, Jan

Jenni said...

I have not even managed to get as far as do a blog post since then :( love you so much and huge big hugs . Its just the two of us now xx )