Day 4


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Day 4 has been
fabulous!!!
It started off a bit rocky, but gradually the day got better and better. I can honestly say it's the BEST day I have had in a LONG time. Nothing spectacular happened, as far as days go, it was ordinary. But a few good things happened!
- A while ago I ordered some things through Etsy from a couple of friends and the new Artful Blogger and Somerset Studio magazines from Stampington and they ALL arrived TODAY, at the same time!! I had this huge pile of parcels to collect from the PO. It was fantastic! I felt so SPOILED!!
Gorgeous tags, notebook, poker chip embellishments!

So that was one great thing about today! Also I joined a friend of mine for coffee, something I haven't done in a while. Bought a fabulous jacket that I had looked all winter for and now that Spring is here and it's getting warmer, I found the one I had wanted! {oh well can wear it next winter!}
After school today, I sat outside with my children, on a blanket and we had a picnic under the trees, with the warm sun filtering down between the leaves, and the sound of birdsong floating on the breeze. It was just perfect. To be outside and feel the warmth after such a long winter. We ate our lunch, giggled and they did their french knitting and I did mine... SIGH {floating away on a cloud}

Besides all that, I achieved my goals today as set out for this challenge and it felt so good.
I realized that I can be a force for good and that even if some don't notice the good I do or see me for who I really am-just a girl who makes mistakes but who underneath it all has a good heart and just wants to share and make others happy...that some DO notice.
I got the sweetest email from my dear dad {he just turned 73} telling me what a great daughter I am and how grateful he is towards me for a number of things...and how proud he is of me for becoming who I am today and for the great kids I have....but the whole email just made me cry, I was so touched....to know he feels that way. {shedding a few now!}
This year has been incredibly hard because in March this year, 6 months tomorrow, my eldest brother {45} died very suddenly of a brain aneurysm. He lived in New Zealand{had immigrated 3 years previously with his wife -married 18 years-and their daughter who just turned 7.} I had not seen him in all those 3 years and the family came for a full month to stay with us in December last year and we went away on holiday for some of that time camping. It was the best holiday ever and I got to know my big brother as a friend. Just two months later his wife phoned to tell us he had suddenly collapsed in his office, complaining of "the worst headache" of his life, vomiting and blacking out. He was rushed to hospital and later transported by air to a larger facility. He was diagnosed with a brain aneurysm and they operated to clip it. However the swelling was too much and after 3 days he was pronounced brain dead....all of this while the rest of my family..my dad, me and my sister are thousands of miles away and my other remaining brother in the UK....so helpless. We all thought he would pull through..we were waiting...It all happened so quickly before any of us even had a chance to make any travel arrangements....
His wish was not to live on life support, and my sister in law phoned to ask if we wanted her to keep it on so that we could fly over to say goodbye. None of us wanted to. We didn't want to see him like that, to have that being our last memory. He was gone.
So it's been 6 months...some days have been so hard I have thought I couldn't even face the day, I went through depression and of course all the stages of grief. It still hurts, just like it hurt now even to type all of this...but I know its all part of the
healing process and the only way to heal is to deal with the emotions and pain so that I can take the next step to moving on. Death is never something you "get over" you just learn to live with it day by day.
So on a very personal level...this is why this challenge is so important to me...I need the motivation to
keep positive because sometimes it's so hard to remember who I was before he died. I guess I was naive, but I feel like I lost my sense of adventure and my SPARK when he died.
TODAY was the first day I have felt ALIVE in every sense of the word.
Thank you Rhonna....more than words can say. {okay really sobbing now!!}
Moving on before I flood my studio!!
I have this blogwear set available for sale in my sidebar, made from My Vintage Dream kit.
1 blog background, 1 blog header and 2 blog buttons and full instructions on how to install.

Yesterday I made this heavenly chicken pie....Took these photos while
enjoying the process....sheesh...Rhonna's challenge rubs off onto everything I do these days! :)

And a little self portrait I did....hello! {and bye!} off to comment on fellow 21-ers!